Catch Up Post!!

Merry Christmas, Happy New Year ummmmmm what other holidays and events have I missed oh yeah I turned 31!!! Ewwwwwwwww

I know it has been a LONG time since I have posted and believe me I am not a slogger just been really busy with life. I am now living on my own I have never done this I went from my father's home to my husbands but now it is time for me to spread my wings and learn to be independent! I have bought paint and since I have been without internet or TV I am done three rooms!!! It is amazing what one can get done without this evil internet hahahah I am Cat and I am addicted to the internet! Anyway this whole living on my own it is a scary prospect but I am strong and I will take this on and own it like I do everything in life! I am still working as a Reservations agent I book ppl all over the world for FREE and believe you me they complain just as much then as if they have to pay hahahah I mean come on your going to PARIS or ROME or SCOTLAND for free!!!!

I am now the Secretary for MADD Waterloo it is the local MADD chapter here it is not the same as MADD Grand Manan was for me but I am still a part of a cause I am passionate about...I miss doing what I wanted and knowing the people I helped yes the island was good for some things hehehehe There is not a day that goes by that I don't think about my school, my students but most of all the people I called family...You guys know who you are and your always in my thoughts! It is hard to find ppl that you click with like I did there, ppl here either just stop talking to you or get busy and forget you exist I miss you guys I miss my Youth I miss my family!!!! I am a better person for having met you guys and had some amazing experiences that I will take with me no matter how far away I get. I am sitting in my bed with Nica beside me watching Flicka lol it is Mother Daughter night!! Take care ciao

Longing to be home

Tonight Danica had her Christmas concert and it was really sweet they had an actual choir instead of all the kids from each class singing...her class has 33 students in it and that is mighty full It was sooo hard for me though I wanted to be up upbeat and supportive but for the last six years I have sat at GMCS with all the other parents that I know and watched the cute antics and singings of all the children of Grand Manan...If I didn't know them I knew a sibling or a parent. Tonight I sat in a school I didn't know surrounded by ppl who didn't know my name and watched this sweet show with kids that I didn't recognize and I felt lonely...It is amazing how you can be surrounded by all those ppl and yet feel more lonely. I miss you guys all so much and my holiday wish this year is to be surrounded by those I love...So I can't be there in person but believe me I am there in spirit...I feel like a huge part of me was left behind there. I know that life takes us all in different directions and I know things happen for a reason but it doesn't mean it isn't hard. You are all in my thoughts and I miss you SOOO much. Don't take anything for granted and live like you might not live another day!!

Flying Blue Turtles!

Well it is 11 days until Christmas, I long to be with all my friends on Grand Manan, my Youth and Leaders...I miss you all sooo much. This is going to be a hard Christmas for all of us but we will get through this.

I am working everyday and even got my first paycheck!!! I like my job it will do for now, I may have to put my schooling on hold as Nica is not doing so well and we are now looking at having to have her assessed for her learning. I won't let her fall behind anymore and need to be there for her. I know that what is meant to be will be...Sometimes that is a hard thing to wait for but we must be patient. Life is not easy right now but we are all getting by day by day you really learn how strong you are in your troubled times...We all have it in us to do what we need to do and then learn to adapt...We may think we can't go on but we will and we will be better for having gone through it. We just have to remember there is always someone we can lean on in those times. I wish everyone a Merry Christmas not a Happy Holiday cause I love to say Merry Christmas!!

Update Update Please!!

Hey everyone sorry you think I am a slogger I have just been really busy, was working a night job and I had no time to think let alone sit and blog but now I am done that one so no "Thank you for calling Bellexpressvue how may I help you...And now I am saying Thank you for calling Flying Blue my name is Cat, may I have your flying blue card number please! I work for Air France's Frequent Flyer club and I am at present handling general inquires and account info. The next step will be reservation training and then I will be booking rewards tickets and the GI questions. I work 9-5:30 right now but will soon get two split shift every month it will be 8am to 4:30pm or 11:30am to 8pm so that is not to bad and we can change our shifts to all days if someone wants all nights...and I have found someone that says she will work all nights!! In the personal side of things we are all struggling, Nica is having hard times adjusting so we are doing what we can...School is not easy for her so we are working on that with her too. It is really cold here and we have snow and ice and I am longing for a beach somewhere with a nice blue ocean!! Hope everyone is well. Love Ya

Awesome Day!! On The Way!!!

Well I am now done my six week Employment Options course and am soooo much better for it!! I have learned so much about myself and how to go out and get what I want. I have heard some of the most amazing things said about me and my accomplishments it has been a huge eye opener!!

I am now in the two week job placement and have secured it through a place called The Working Center and through them I will get to experience all different aspects of the Social Services field. Yesterday was a pretty quiet day sat out front and stuffed envelopes as they are in the middle of their big mail fundraiser, but I got to talk to ppl just the same. Today though I went to the Saint John's Kitchen and did outreach...I was really nervous at first but once I got there I shadowed the woman that does this job and then she hands me a pad and says go for it! So I was sent out into the table area and it was just like I was meant to be there...ppl talked to me and I actually could help some ppl...That is such a feeling for me to be able to do something that is meaningful. I get to learn new ways of working in this Social Services field and am enjoying myself at the same time!! I really love all the things I have done so far and get up excited to start another day!! I am hoping that this is what I am meant to do and will apply for the college as soon as I am able!! It is a highly competitive course and a panel interview is done to see if you are a right fit for the course...So you need to stick out!! I love it though I love it!! I know that for some reason I was meant to be here and in time that purpose will be revealed to me!! I am taking it day by day and just trying to live my life to the best of my abilities. I miss you all!! And think of you all often!!

Happy Halloween!!

Ok Ok so it is late but better late than never!! I dressed up as a leopard cat for Halloween and my friend and I went to a club but OML here Halloween means dress up in your underwear!! I was embarrassed to be out there! I wanted to have a little fun, dance and celebrate a day I love!! I missed the usual going to the bar up there and seeing everyone done up and having a fun time...I really miss my friends darnit!!

On a positive note I have a job interview tomorrow for a tech support job that would run until February some time and as I am looking at going to school this job would be good for me...Although any of you who know me well will get a kick out of the company I will be working for...X-Box hahaha I will keep you posted on how I do and if I get it. Also a positive I finally got my drivers license changed over!! It was nice to see something positive that I have been trying to accomplish finally get done! I am slowly trying to make things happen. I have to bang on resumes now and should be able to get a good job anywhere I apply...But I hate the interview hehehe I hope everyone is doing well I miss you all and hope life is treating you all well.

Here are some pics of Nica I and for Halloween!!

Trust what is it and what is it good for?

Well sorry I haven't written in a while I have been really busy here...The course has taken up a lot of my time. In this course we are doing all sorts of things that have to do with personalities and who we are and what we would be happiest doing. I have realized going through this that I am no longer the person I was. I used to be fun loving and care free, let anyone in and keep them as friends and now I am soo damn afraid of letting anyone in...Then once again I find out that someone I thought was a friend someone who I confided in and loved so much just discarded that like it meant nothing. How can you learn to trust again when everytime you start to someone comes along and kicks you when your down!??! Is anyone out there honest anymore or is that an archaic value?? Oh My every time I turn around I am being shown how horrible people are and how they just hurt you over and over...Why do you even bother !!!